The excitment

I don't know why I don't feel as excited as I was when I got the news, the chance of going to US. Really, sometimes I'm just freaking out, not excited at all I say. The purpose of going seems lost when there's another mess playing on my mind. If only I could say every single detail that I'm feeling now. Please O Allah, I'm seeking for the excitement that my other friends have, and especially, the excitement that he has.