M-Love part 2

Okay Look. It's not that I'm so excited about this "make love" thing but since some of the readers said that the previous entry is quite too general which might let down the excitement of the readers after clicking the -"Making Love" link. Owh really? Sorry for letting you down then. Yeah I actually noticed that that entry isn't as interesting as the title sounds like because it is a bit too draggy. While the main points that I intentionally to point out is just this part...

"When was the first time you knew how to make love? Who told you about it? Your parents? Your friends? Your teacher? And what was sex in your understanding before you discovered the true meaning of it? And even before you knew the word sex is existed, how do you imagine on how your parents deliver you to the unlimited world? How how how?"

So, I'll answer every each one of the questions base on my own experiences directly, straight to the point, in a way not to make it too dull and draggy.

The first question is,

How did I respond when I just hit puberty? How did I respond when I've found out that I'm gonna be a grown-up lady instead of an immature and childish little girl. After I've found out that I finally hit my puberty, I called a friend of mine who has already been through it to ask about how to handle this and that. I even asked some sanitary pad from her instead of asking from my maid or anyone else in the house to buy for me (in case you forgot, I stayed with my Atuk and Uwan during my primary school, and KakLong was staying at the hostel. All in all, I was the only one who got period by the time). The funny part of that, I didn't tell my mom about the most important thing that happened in my life. Why? Because I felt so embarrassed. I think that was too fast. Too fast for me to leave the enjoyment as a childhood girl. And to face the life as a grown up lady, to accept the fact that people would start labeling me as "A lady" instead of  "A girl". To learn about the more serious thing that might happen, the feelings and emotions. On how to handle them. To educate myself about the primary and secondary sexual characteristics in depth.
How did my mom find out about my transition period from her little girl to a pre-adult female? My younger sister told her on the telephone and only God knows how she knew about that situation. How funny when your childhood reminds of your childishness, I mean very childish, as in so immature to compare than who you are now. Then after few years after that, I always wanted to look like a matured lady, to always look way more mature than my other peers. Then I insisted on only going out or having affair with guys who are older than me. It's like my very own principal if I wanted to respond a guy's "Hi". I used to believe that guys at the same age are usually immature, you know, tak matang and insensitive. But I was wrong. By was the first guy in my life (same age) who bravely confessed about his feeling towards me, maturely and sensitively. The first thing that he mentioned why he found me so affectionate in his very own eyes, is because of my loyalty. Eventhough my heart was so reluctant to accept him as a part of my another half, but his confession captivated my mind from letting him goes that easily. Loyalty! Which means, he's expecting a girl to be loyal to him. There's nothing else matter then. I don't have to set loyalty as a part of a silly and a breakable promises or to be polite a relationship rule between a couple. Whatever it is, Allah knows best. If he's the one for me, then he is. If he's not, I believe that this is somewhat a very wonderful and amazing stage of my love life that He gave. Alhamdulillah.

See. Draggy lagi.
Second question,
"When was the first time I knew about sex intercourse? Who told me?"
I knew the main, or  the basic thing about making love, to be specific is sex intercourse when I was at the age of 12 or 13. I don't know whether it's too late or too early to you but I consider that as a normal stage for a girl to know about all this thing. But my cousin, the one who explained and clarified the ways of making love was shocked herself after I innocently said "I don't know how it works". Well we accidentally went to the conversation because we saw the word "masturbation" on a magazine. Which by the time I also didn't know what masturbation is. Haha. Say I'm a decent girl.

Third question,
How did I respond after my cousin told me about this sex intercourse thing?
I said, "Really? Wouldn't it be hurt?" or "Betul ke? Tak sakit ke?" with a wrinkled forehead.

Fourth question,
What was sex in my understanding before I discovered the true meaning of it?
Simple, I thought sex is just kissing and hugging. Never thought of rubbing the boobs and everything. Once I learnt about the real sex thing, I was like, "How uncivilized is that?" Again, how decent was I back then.

Fifth question,
How did I imagine on how my parents deliver me to the world? How my mother got pregnant?
Again, with my childish thought, I thought by sleeping together in bed a woman can get pregnant. But I still remember some of the times in my childhood memory box, I wonder. If true a mom can get pregnant by just sleeping with dad, then why didn't I get pregnant when I sleep beside my guy cousin.

Lisa Surihani

Yeah I know she's a law student. But she's a damn smart ass (for a celebrity). Most people said that she's trying so hard to look cool on TV, even I myself pon rasa macam tu. But she still looks very beautiful, humble and friendly.

Mushroom tips

Do you remember the Alexandra Wallace video that I posted HERE.
Now you enjoy this one.

Genie an extreme discovery

Have you ever heard of a girl named Genie who had been locked up by her father since she was young until people discovered the isolation, which was about 13-15 years. In the video, is her 13-14 years old self, but she looks like a toddler.

Excited about this video because my friend just tweet a video about her and because our lecturer used this Genie case in our Sociology lecture yesterday. Let's the videos do the talking.

And the studies by Susan Curtiss

Keep watching until the later part because she looks more like a human and she becomes a grown up girl.

More information,

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and

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Girls and SALES?

If you ever accompany your girlfriends to shop, did you hear this

     "Hurm should I buy or not? If I buy, membazir la pulak"

But suddenly when it comes to sales season, you heard this

      "Hurm should I buy or not? If I don't buy, membazir la pulak"

By asked me to accompany him window shopping some long pants and a bagpack at Sunway Pyramid. Tak window shopping that much pon because we rushed for movie at 8.25pm. But then, while searching for the outlets that By wanted to look for his stuffs, and then I saw the word SALES at Charles & Keith outlet. Like owh my gawsh. Did I mention that Charkes & Keith ni la outlet paling susah nak buat sales. So of course la I walked into the outlet like a Bimbo, told By, "Kejap je,,,pleaseeee.." Well you know how much I love the Charles & Keith stuffs. And then I saw this brown wedge, supercool! Even the price after less pon cheap gila you. But I doubt whether or not to buy. And then cakap la dalam hati, Hey you shouldn't spend today! You're not looking for stuffs okay so tak payah gedik. So the good side of me whispered at the edge of my ear. Entered like a Bimbo and finally went out like a sad clown. (Sebab da mintak size kasut lagi)

While By pergi sembahyang, I wandered around dulu, usha2 "cheap" stuffs. If you want a cheap shoe or slipper but still looks funky and comfortable, go to Vincci. What's more when they're having sales kan. Yeah right, like you don't know. But maybe other higher class outlets seem cheap to you but Vincci considered cheap already for me. Anyway, I think the best Vincci in Selangor or KL is the one at the curve (or IPC tak sure). Besar gila outlet dia and they have a lot of different items and colors. Even the one that you never seen before, and then out of the blue masa sales pulak timbul. How cool is that? So I entered la Vincci usha2 sikit the shoes and the handbags. And I saw this black high heel yang tersangat la cheap harganya. Try punya try I saw another nice creamy high heels. And then try2 lagi. Tapi tak beli pon.

Masuk Nicchi, MNG. Tak minat baju2, pergi eighteen eighty. I saw a very beautiful brown blouse and then I try. Hurm sangat la suka. STILL!! Tak beli jugak.

After that, I asked By to meet me up at Vincci tengok2 kan the shoes yang I minat tu. He said, hurm just buy la. Murah pulak tu. Boleh beli 2 3 kasut daripada the one from Charles & Keith. Hurm again, sadly to say. Tak beli jugak.

And then we went to Charles & Keith, again! Ask for the brown wedge again, try it, walk with it, usha2 dekat mirror, pusing2 like a bimbo with "Ok tak by ok tak?" Suddenly I feel the brown color looks disgusting. Then I grabbed a cream color wedge. Looks much better on me. 

So the final decision is, "It's about the uhh Cha chang Cha Chang and the yeah Bub Bling Bub Bling"

I finally bought that cream wedge. I still have a pair of high heel at home which I only used once or twice. Does that consider membazir already? Damn! I hate SALES season!

Haha.

Making Love

Don't worry. It's not an "above 18" stuffs. It's Universal and unisex. 
Ain't about the uhh Ca chang Ca chang..
Ain't about the  Yeahh Bab-bling Bab-bling.

So now, I'll be talking about sex sex sex and sex. Tell me how much do you love the "sex" word and how many times have you mentioned this word from the moment you understand the meaning of sex and don't bluff about it.

How do you define sex when you were at the age of 12 or 13? Wait a minute! I can see the "euwww" mimicry on your face and please stop that. It used to be a close-conversation back then but it isn't now. Can say because of the development of technology or wanna blame the human evolution and kids curiosities? Yes I am a Muslim girl who'll be writing about sex, but don't you see the bias that the so-called scholars created that it is okay when men talk and make fun of women and which usually related to sex, but when a girl is trying to deliver some thoughts about how she defines sex, and then the guys would be like "She's a slut and she's dying for sex". Okay crumple and crumple that stupid thought and throw them in a dustbin. Sigh!

Okay peeps, just don't worry. You don't have to tab the X button at the right corner up there because you're not gonna get horny by reading this crap. I'm not writing about how a guy comes over to a lady's room and how he unwraps her clothes and everything. Durhh..I've gone too far, Have I? Ceyhh..Gotcha.
It's supposed to be a short entry but out of the blue my hands are getting so excited writing about this. Hurm now you know how much the "sex" word influence your life. Hahha.

Anyways, I'll be talking about our first encounter with the word "SEX". When was the first time you knew how to make love? I don't know if the guys ever do this talking but I bet they never. Otherwise, if a girl asks about it to him. But most of the girls do this talking and thank you to men for euuwingg us for having this kind of conversation. It's because, we are more civilized. Mintak maaf ye, because I've been hitting the guys since last night and don't know why. Blame Miss Singh, my Sociology lecturer because she's the one who influences me to saying such things. As a student, I just follow. =)

Okay back to the point? When was the first time you knew how to make love? Who told you about it? Your parents? Your friends? Your teacher? And what was sex in your understanding before you discovered the true meaning of it? And even before you knew the word sex is existed, how do you imagine on how your parents deliver you to the unlimited world? How how how? Yes guys, reminding you that the girls do this talking.

People, do you know that there are still girls at the age 17 doesn't know how it works? And why is that happening? Because these girls are just trying to avoid such conversation because they want to secure their holy mind. Listen, I never mentioned of losing their virginity okay but their perception on sex. As if it's the euuwwesstt topic to talk about, and because of that, they just ran away from the conversation and be innocent until they get married. I personally do not agree with the action because it is not necessarily you ask the guys about it, make an open conversation with your sisters, cousins or your mature girlfriends.

Owh yea, for the guys case, vice versa. One of my friend (a guy) told me that he knew about this sex thing when he was 6 years old. Owh my gawsh. How fast is that? And some even couldn't remember when was the  time he knew about all this crap. On the other hand, the girls like you know are very particular about everything. As they will always remember the date she glued the another part of the missing heart to hers, that is also how much she remember when was the first time she knew about this sex thing, and even their first period. All these things are somewhat a something special to us. A memorable moment. Because every event, there's a beautiful story behind it. It's just whether or not she realized about it or not.

The expression of the moment she got her period, and when she knew about how to make love. My experience for getting my first period was "Owh No I'm not gonna be a kid anymore." Do you get the feeling? The feeling of "No I don't want to be an adult"! And when we knew about how to make love thing, we were like "Ouchh!! Seriously??"

What about guys? I assume that they are all so excited for hitting puberty. But what about the sex thing? sure they are all like "Owhhh yeaaahhh...!!"

Come on. Don't be like what the F is this girl writing about. Be a big girl/boy dude!

Insya Allah

Frankly speaking, the excitement of going to the State isn't as much as the moment I received MARA offer letter saying that I got accepted to do this program at Taylor's University and will be continuing my degree to United States. The enjoyment of studying at a prestigious university which obviously my parents could not afford to send me to, and when we even know that there is a higher chance of furthering our studies to overseas. Well you know what I mean.

Seeing some of my friends' pictures travelling here and there all over the world, some in the country that I'll be going, some in Canada, Aussie, Mesir, Korea, Japan and lots more, I envy them because they got the chance to go there earlier which referring to the early stage of age where they started to learn to stand on their own feet, far far away from their family. Yes I am standing on my own feet now, but to whom am I gonna beg for some penny for my medical payment if I get sick? To SMS to inform that "I'm lacking of money" with a-must "hehe" at the back.

I am just still quite excited going to the States, but how much is the excitement? You tell me. Whenever people ask, "When are you going?" or "How come you haven't flown yet?" And I said "Insya Allah kalau ada rezeki, January 2012".

Sometimes they ask "Are you excited? Sure you do right?" And I was like "Hurm excited? Ehehehe..bolehla." But I whispered to myself "Hurm dah berkurun aku tunggu nak fly,hilang da rase excited tu"
So what about it? Am I not grateful for atleast getting the opportunities been sponsored to study overseas?

This entry wouldn't be a problem for people who gets the chance as I do right now, but it might be to others who don't. I am really sorry if you feel offended or annoyed with what I'm trying to express here. It isn't my intention to offend people. It's just an expression.

Cold weather?

Preparing for Chemistry test, which is tomorrow. Owh wait? Is it? Then why the hell am I still popcorning my blog while others are sleeping, freshing their mind for tomorrow's test. Yeah right. I'm not sleepy yet. So here I am starting to crap on my blog.

Well, studying in a cold place is the first condition that I will try to avoid as I couldn't withstand to stay in a low-temperature room for hours. What's more when it comes to studying for an exam. I'd love studying at home ( as in my house in Sunway, not the one in Kuala Pilah nor Damansara as these places are such a comfort place to S.L.E.E.P.) But only at night. Studying at home during days is the most challenging because studying versus sleeping, can see the bias among them two? It's a miracle isn't it? Yes I admit  the guys might think it is weird to sleep during days and I bet they would wonder how can the girls bare the hot weather but sleep at the same time. For the boyfriends, just don't freak out if your girlfriends love to sleep during days as according to a research, it is normal for the girls to get a long rest due to the period cycle that they need to bare every month and then. Girls are weak. In a way to get more energy. Yes now you shout the bias dudes. The research has been done by a not-yet graduated girl from Taylor's University, Miss Idora Qatrunnada. =)

Back to my study condition. Where was I? Owh yea, about the couldn't resist the low-temperature thing. As our library here in Lakeside is sort of a friggin cold place to study (resembles my refrigerator at home), I prefer not to study in the library. I don't know how the hell the other students can study in the library with the very damn cold temperature. Okay okay. I love our library too. I admire the architecture of the whole library, the facilities, the Mac computer that they are providing which I don't know how to use (for that, glad they have the Dell computer so I can at least use it to print out my paper works.) But I personally think, no I mean for myself, I don't think the library is quite a convenient place for me to study. Due to that  reason, I looked around the whole campus for the best place for me to study once I entered this new campus. And then I found this,

Yeah it looks horrible right. But it wasn't supposed to be like this. I took this picture because I was amazed of the heavy rain that day which caused it to look like this. It's a Dessert Bar. This is just the best place to study with the scenery of the lake in front of me. But when it rains, I just need to look for a not so comfortable place to study in campus.

Anyways, too sad to say this. I eventually need to shift my outdoor-studyroom because Dessert Bar just closed their restaurant very recently. Guess where would be the new place? Yes, inside the library.
There is one place in the library, which is near to the big glass, facing the not-so-nice scenery but the crucial part of this area, I can feel the sunlight from the outside. It penetrates the glass wall. Studying as if I'm in a glass-wall house and I love it.

Hurm yeah. This is the most uninteresting thing to share but I don't know. I enjoy sharing it with others. Because different people have thousand of different ways and conditions of studying and this is mine.
Yeah I know. You may ask, if a cold weather is the major problem for me to adapt, then how the hell am I gonna survive in America?

How stupid I am for making a silly mistake, and now feeling so bad. I couldn't hold back my tears anymore. Just started tweeting on Twitter and I hope that I can hold all the emotions inside. Or writing it down here, but not everything. Not letting it goes publicly. Not exposing the stupidity of me.

It is obvious that all the consequences due to my dumbness just increase my stress level. My health! The period pain. Been suffering of dizziness for the past few days. I'm the one who did the wrong thing and I need to fix it. But with my condition now, NO I can't. Wouldn't be able to. So just let it be. Whatever is going to happen, I'll take it.

Chocolate Fountain

Yes I am on diet but I'm a food lover. And I'mma Chocaholic. How can I resist myself from taking chocolate when that's the only place that we both can spend time and chit chat together. Durh..what a lame excuse. Planned to have a date movie together but ended up lepak at Chocolate  because we decided to just have a little chat instead of both eyes focusing on the big screen in the cinema.

After few times went to Chocolate Cafe, but this was our first time ordered their Chocolate affair or best known as Chocolate fountain. Yes the chocolate itself is so superb. 

There were four types of fruits they served which are Strawberry, Orange, Banana and Kiwi.

My cousins and I gathered at Mak Itam's house at Villa Wangsa Mas and we......

An argument

Sometimes it ain't easy to argue about something that seems right to you but isn't to the other. Wait, all the time. Well basically that's the description of an argument. It becomes harder when neither you nor the other side is going to end the conversation with a good decision, which is good for both side. Which is fair for both side. It is the hardest when both trying so hard to convince the other,
       "No I'm right. You did that the other day. I want to do this. Now you just  feel what I feel"
Being silence is the best way to solve the problem? Yes it is for couple of minutes or days. Some space and some times to think about it deeply, and maturely.

Or maybe can view the situation from this side

       "It wouldn't be a problem if you just listen and let me just do this freaking thing"

and the other side says

"But I think it'll be way easier if you just listen to me and just don't do this freaking thing"

Wanted to use fucking, 

but it always sound 

too harsh to me.

 So I replace the F word with freaking. 

So for those who can bare with the F word, 

read it as it is. =)

Conflict always happen among people who are in a close relationship.

So, just don't wonder.

The more conflicts you're having, 

the closer you are toward each other.

Look who's talking.

As if she's an expert.

A friend or a foe?

As long as people do not bad talk me, or mess up with me, I'll be just fine with them.
However, I will just hate feel unpleasant with every single thing about them if they do so. Until they say sorry, or atleast face me and settle down the problem and willing to get back together. Apologizing is the easiest thing that I can do if I do wrong. I don't mind saying sorry even though I wasn't the one who starts the argument. I don't mind if some dislike me, or uncomfortable with me. But if that dislike caused sort of corruption in my life, then I do.
As far as I'm concerned, I'll be a complete guardian angel as long as they're willing to be a good acquittance.

The Qatrunnada sisters

Tag according to the picture below.

Huahahhahaaha

Of course I'm the hottest.

Idora = Kim

Lunch at Al-Rawsha

Have you ever heard of Al-Rawsha restaurant?

Where they serve Arabic cuisine.

We went there yesterday with KakLong belanje.

Take a look at some of our pictures. 

Do we look alike?

I remember there once I was hanging out with KakLong and there was one stranger passed by and said 

"Ehy, kembar ke diorang ni"

That's how they serve their meals. 

On a big plate of rice with chicken and lamb in it.

Mango juice

Mom hate this drink and was so mad at me because she wanted to order orange/watermelon juice but I insisted with this mango juice.

And what's more when this juice is super likat gile. Die punya membebel.

But it doesn't sound right when I look at this picture.

Amboyh bukan main sedap lagi die teguk air tu.

 

Like seriously, I just asked KakLong to order.

Say I am Kg.com because it is just the way I am.

hehe.

I couldn't even pronounce any of the menu they have.

I just tried my best to choose my own choice but the only word that I can spell is just lamb.

And the rest everything they tulis perkataan Arab.

Haaa...now you know the importance of Arabic language eyh.

Ceyh bab makan je pulak yang penting.

Bab nak pahamkan maksud Al-Quran tak nak pulak mention.

Huhu

Ayah sangat comel

And then we went to Giant for some groceries.

Lepak lepak at J.Co for my favorite Iced Chocolate.

Owh J.Co Iced chocolate is the most superb Iced chocolate you can have.

No one will say No.

BBQ with family

Family is the most peaceful and secure word that ever come out from everyone's mouth. 

No matter how bad the family is, no matter what people bad mouth anyone of our family members, we wouldn't be able to simply back-stab them.

Same like any other sibling, we get into fights most of the time.

We would always plan a family gathering when we are apart from each other.

Now we realized how much we have lost the joyful of doing things together without waiting for Ibu or Ayah's instruction to do the dishes, the laundry, to clean the house, etc.

When everything will be done by the superwoman of the house which known as "Bibik".

"Allah is the Just. He gives you 4 girls and  1 boy, you'll get 4 boys and 1 girl in return"

Haris Fadzilah

So here they are, Eed, By and Aizat.

Preparing for the BBQ

Get instruction from Mom on how to marinate the chickens and the lambs.

Si comel who's crazy for KakLong's chocolate brownies.

My sister and her dearie Eed.

Use a fan to control the fire, how desperate is that?

the lamb ended up like this.

And caused Ayah to

Ina and her dearie

Aizat was fishing

There you go the BBQ are all ready to be eaten.

Yes that's how we have our lunch and dinner.  

Makan duduk atas lantai you.

When gather with all family members with the presence of any one of them,

 it surely would be a great weekend for all.

What's more when three of them were there that weekend.