Menara Tinjau

A dream place to go doesn't always satisfy your fantasy, no matter how imaginative the  narrator describing about that particular place. There you are, Menara Tinjau a.k.a Look Out Point. It's been a big dream to me since it took almost one year to get there, right after I heard about how beautiful the place is.
It was a big mistake to go out at 10pm on the very last day of the year. We reached there at 12am, and jam a long the way tu, was indescribable with the double parking and people who were counting down to 12am.
I don't mind for not getting the chance to countdown together with a bunch of peeps over there. But what upset me when we needed to park at this creepy place which was so far away from the place yang untuk dinner tue. For those who have been there should know a place named Haven and you should know the price, the service and the food itself. Excoriating the things that are already clumped in my belly is too mean and it's like tak bersyukur. Yeah it's just me and I'm glad that my boyfriend nie jenis yang menerima seadanya.

The first impression that  totally let me down when the waitresses gave us three A4 papers which consist of their menus. And surprisingly there were not so many choices, well okay maybe it's normal for food. But what on earth for only offering can drinks for cold drinks and it costs 10 bucks each? And it's only F&N.
Tapi mule2 tak kesah la, maybe because of the place so everything becomes so pricey. But until this point that  the other table which came later dapat their meals first and when we asked the manager, he said he didn't get the order yet. WTH? Because of one slack, it affects the rest of the services. Take a look here.

  10bucks for a F&N orange can.

 And dessert was Mat Kool cup.

Chicken Chop with only mayonnaise and tasted like Ayam Goreng for 40bucks and Lamb Stick yang sumpah liat for 40 bucks as well. My drink was a cup of Hot Chocolate for 10 bucks.

Accepted la tapi kalau yang laen macam __________ cane nak accept kan

Kitorang ade beli chocalate cake 8bucks yang rase die like a sponge chocolate cake.

So the total cost for dinner was RM117.60. Owh gosh. We could afford 2 times candle light dinner at The Countess, which the meals and services are way better than this one. Well yeah, memang super cheap kat this restaurant with the cosy ambiance I'm telling you.  I don't wanna blame Haven for having Malay stuffs and waiter/waitresses for god sake. But please la. People wish to go there not just for the nice view, but for penny that worth their meals. So for Haven, please improve  your services because I myself don't mind paying 20 or 30 bucks for good drinks. So please.

Dah habes makan kitorang tak nak lepak lame lame kat situ sebab fed up sangat. It was only both of us yang kene turun bukit tu, without lights and only few cars passed by, I read An-Nas over and over again sampai kereta. And when I asked By what he scared of, he said "Takot Mat Rempit wat tak senonoh to me" and I told him what I scared of, "Makhluk Halus". HUHU

So the end of story, we didn't take any photos at Menara Tinjau which used to be my dream place, well at least until last night. It was all because of Haven. All these pictures I just copycat from Google Image. They're not the real thing I mentioned but lebih kurang macam nie la.

Inilah die indah khabar dari berita.

Whatever it is I'm still grateful for having dinner together with my By, at my dream place. Well as if.

Blog?

If say writing a blog is like drawing a fabric art on a canvas, that means I'm not listed as the talented one. I do notice about nuffnang advertisements all this while but frankly speaking I have no idea about this thing at all, until a friend of mine Kreen explained to me about it. I also know that some people could make money by writing blogs, but I never knew how could they earn money by selling nothing. OMG! I know it's kinda absurd for expressing this out, but to be truth, I only knew about nuffnang, Hanis Zalikha and Cik Epal from Yonna. Owh yeah, and Su Ann. The only famous blogger that I knew earlier was PinkPau, which the one that ManYoke mentioned to me last time. I'm not sure whether Su Ann and PinkPau are actually the same person but I know both of them are Chinese. And I'm pretty sure that PinkPau was graduated from the State.

The initial reason for me to have a blog is just to express my feelings, not exposing my all experiences to the world. Yea it's true sometimes I posted my post on Facebook, but it's not purposely to get more followers. Sometimes I think it's fun to let people know what I do or what I did. It's totally contradict to my statement about not letting people know about my life. Hurm how should I put this? You should understand when one say "don't want " it doesn't mean "never".

Okay about having thousand of followers, some did very amazingly in their writing to approach the readers. Some people tend to ask the other bloggers to follow their story. Having few followers doesn't take me down at all. I even sometimes surprised when some fellas talked about what I wrote as never I expected that some would read it. The loyal reader of my blog is only myself since I'd love to read my writing over and over again. Since via blogging can make free money and innocuous somemore, why shouldn't I give it a whirl? Hahha, perhaps not now.

Owh another thing I wonder, how could some people manage their time for having more than one social networking. Instead of only Facebook, they're extremely active with twitter and Blog as well as tumbler. Okay now I'm confused which one is which. I don't see that you don't have a life since you're updating about your current experience from time to time. But what amazed me, how do you divide your time in killing two birds with one stone? It's a confusion that I kept questioning myself how does someone work while studying? It sounds silly and not optimistic, but I might need some tips on it sooner or later

I lose my confidence

Losing confidence is the ugliest obstacle for one to face the real examination.

I don't know if I could overcome my weaknesses and anxiousness. Well it's better to say I hope that I could overcome these problems. Or the much better one is "I WILL". But more and more effort I put on, it doesn't incline up as high as I expected. Tawakal will be the very last thing on every Muslim's mind before the actual battle  is on. I wonder why is it so hard for me? Why isn't it to others? Rather than finding the answer for these unsolved wonders, why not I just don't stop trying and praying.

I

If babies do, why shouldn't I? Why shouldn't we?

Tengok gamba nie teringat pulak seksaan budak budak kecik yang tak tentu masa depan diorang but aku dah senang lenang kat Malaysia nie, masalah sikit je dah merengek.

 Children, I wish I can be as strong as you are in Palestine.

Girl's gathering

 My friends are updating their blog with this trip so why shouldn't I? Three days gathering worth the past few months, where I also can't remember when was the last time I saw them. Around of applause to Mishi and Wendy for organizing such a memorable gathering and for guiding the 13 of us to the bestest places in Malacca. Some said Malacca isn't a gracious place to go for a trip but with you guys guiding us for the whole  3 days are completely worth it to us. Luckily we finally changed our plan to have our BBQ at Pengkalan Balak if not we would stuck at Tanjung Bidara with the no-wind environment and we could only lepak until 7pm. Owh yea. Not forgetting the prank on us, for not actually had to pay for the D'Village chalet that we rent, where they kept the secret for three days. Yeah, you got me guys.

they remind me of Ummu Tanamu

Kenny rogers cost us RM361.55

 Surprisingly, I only spent less that 50 bucks for the whole three days since the rent for the chalet was free. Owf FOC because it's Mishi's friend chalet. Thank you kawan Mishi

No-internet life

It's been awhile I haven't been updating my blog. Being on holiday without internet at home is totally suck to me as that is the main reason why I left my blog hangy like that. It's true a lot of stuffs to share with the hangouts and everything. Well we're approaching the the end of 2010 and I realized how much I spent my money on foods, movies and bowling, and how lack in term of shopping. Shopping new clothes are inconceivable as I'd only love to shop shoes and hand bags. But the thing is I spent no-cent on any of them. Like totally. Back to the no-internet life. Some might be asking what I do and what I don't during my hols, precisely with my lappy. Haha. I played some games which are absolutely not the hard core like others used to play with. And watch movies yang dah lame terperam dalam laptop nie. Hurm like seriosuly, I don't have the mood to write about this no-internet life. It didn't completely spoil my holidays because I'm glad cause I had enough rest as in wake up as late as possible, no need to worry about studies and everything. Owh shit! I haven't mentioned about my result. OMG OMG OMG! Dean's list for this semester yeayyy... Alhamdulillah. It is worth the effort yeayy..And especially my calculus love you MR Thomas yeayyy..

Owh by the way, no internet was because we just moved in from Kelana Jaya to Damansara, as in our second house after Kuala Pilah. So baru masuk UNIFI.. Laju tau..

Mr Calculus

Dear Mr Jacob,
Yeahh finally. Its just the the end of Calculus story. OMG, having Calculus  for the whole three semesters resemble the whole 2 years of taking SPM. Being one of the mentor for Add Maths subject during high school, it was a pain in the ass to complete these three troublesome courses each semester. Thank you Mr. Jacobian for finding out a solution to solve the Math problem that bugging your head by the time, as we inherited it until I used your method to solve my problem this evening. Yeah I could find the final answer which is unsure whether it's a correct one, or an incorrect one. Just too many steps to do and I might have did some careless mistakes by using your theorem, so I hope there's another creepy fellow to just do what you did. Create a new method that could be simpler, and easier. Owh crapp. I know Jacobian isn't that hard. Just too excited for not seeing Mr. Thomas anymore. I'm not gonna blame Mr Phang for giving me a "not A" for Calculus, but I might blame you Thomas. You might hate me, but you didn't know how much I concern and care about your "things", and I carried you here and there for the whole year. I perhaps gonna throw you away, so far away from my life and I believe that I'm not gonna miss you, and will never ever fallen in love with you for the second time. But I treasure some sweet memory with you, which is, Mr Jacobian. Because you remind me of Jacob Black. Stay handsome and hot in my final exam paper so you might melt Mr Phang's heart.

The only reason I treasure some of our memory together is because of,,,,,,,

...............Jacobian's Theorem.♥

Just realized too many MR Calculus in this blog, I wonder if they are as hot as Jacob Black!

Look, mom and By asked me to take my rest instead of studying. Should I take a rest as in sleep again, or push myself to study accounting? Flue and fever is getting worse as I totally lose the mood to study. I haven't prepared Accounting at all and the exam will be on Wednesday, together with Chemistry on the morning side. Damn it! It's not about the mood to not studying, but I can't give my full focus on what I study.
Let's say I choose to not studying because of the "mood" thingy, and say tomorrow the bad cold is still haunting me, or even worse, does it mean I must choose to not studying again? Haa...!! Kenape Demam dan Hingus? Kenape kau tak datang last week je? Dah lame kot kau lost contact dengan aku!

To this person

To this person, I really hope that you will read this one. Even though I know you won't, coincidentally you might click my link and read this one, with God's will. I've been through the same damn thing and I know how much it hurts, and you have no idea how awful I'd faced that misery.

"The reason why your loved one left you for now, because there's someone who will love you even more later"

Believe it, because I already found mine.

Thank you for those who wrote this.

Terdapat dua orang nelayan. Seorang penyembah berhala, dan seorang lagi muslim yang taat kepada ALLAH. Ketika menebar jala, yang menyembah berhala menyebut nama berhalanya, manakala yang muslim membaca bismillah. Bila jala diangkat, yang menyembah berhala mendapat banyak ikan, manakala yang muslim, hampir sahaja tiada ikan untuknya pada hari itu.

Malaikat yang melihat keadaan itu bertanya kepada ALLAH.

“ Ya ALLAH, apakah yang telah berlaku? HambaMu yang menyekutukanMu, KAU berikan dia rezeki yang banyak, sedangkan hambaMu yang menyebut namaMu, KAU tidak memberikan DIA apa-apa”

ALLAH menjawab,

“ Yang menyekutukanKu, tempatnya memang sudah pasti NERAKA. Maka apalah sangat rezeki yang pasti akan hancur itu jika Kuberikan kepadaNya? Tetapi HambaKu yang beriman itu, AKU hendak mengganjarkanNya syurga, maka AKU suka mengujinya untuk melihat kebenaran imanNya”

Okay just had my bubur ayam..
Gonna make a hot 3in1Nescafe (not healthy)
Still no mood to study!

Yeah final exam and flue some more. Not enough with that, here followed by pening2 and fever. Just ordered MacD delivery chicken porridge, the best meal to have for a sick girl like me. Hurm nyumee nyumee and still waiting waiting waiting and still,, waiting and still. Waiting for the ding dong. Owh crap! Just lost the mood to study but surely not because of the "normal" thing, surely because of this bad cold that I'm having.

You've made me cry by not hurting me, but...you knew it.
You know how precious that was? You melt me down. This could be disgusting or lame to some readers, yet like hell I care because I just  fall in love again. Just admit that it is so hard to stay away from each other, even for awhile. And sooner or later, I need to learn how to adopt and adapt with the new environment, well at least over here. Hurmm final exam is just next week, so we should avoid from any distraction. I love you. And I'm gonna miss you. Hopefully its worth it to wait until next Friday. I don't wanna postpone anymore.

Ya Allah bagilah aku kekuatan and determination to face and to do this. Please....

Final Exam

Final exam NEXT WEEK! Hurm calculus III totally let me down. 

Can anyone tell me how to get rid of making careless mistakes in exam?

 And to maximize the so called critical thinking during exam?

I'll live as my own self

"Like A Star"

Just like a star across my sky,

Just like an angel off the page,

You have appeared to my life,

Feel like I'll never be the same,

Just like a song in my heart,

Just like oil on my hands,

Honour to love you

Still I wonder why it is,

I don't argue like this,

With anyone but you,

We do it all the time,

Blowing out my mind,

You've got this look I can't describe,

You make me feel like I'm alive,

When everything else is au fait,

Without a doubt you're on my side,

Heaven has been away too long,

Can't find the words to write this song,

Oh...

Your love,

Still I wonder why it is,

I don't argue like this,

With anyone but you,

We do it all the time,

Blowing out my mind,

Now I have come to understand,

The way it is,

It's not a secret anymore,

'cause we've been through that before,

From tonight I know that you're the only one,

I've been confused and in the dark,

Now I understand,

I wonder why it is,

I don't argue like this,

With anyone but you,

I wonder why it is,

I wont let my guard down,

For anyone but you

We do it all the time,

Blowing out my mind,

Just like a star across my sky,

Just like an angel off the page,

You have appeared to my life,

Feel like I'll never be the same,

Just like a song in my heart,

Just like oil on my hands 

I know I can. What's the best will always be the one. Craps, please get the hell out of my head. I asked from Him, because He always knows the best. Ya Allah, I just want to be strong for every single test that I face, in every aspect that's happening, happened and gonna happen in my life. I need the strength from you. I'll work on it, but I need You by my side, because You're the only who could comfort me whenever I'm down. Even though I have to lie to myself cause I know that I do not deserve it. Hurm kenape ni Idora? I want your old self. I need your old self. It's just so messy and I couldn't handle it. I just need an empty mind, but screwed it with Finals and everything.

It's just the downturn of everything, buck up! Because you're not a lame girl.

Need, and then Love.

 I wish she can stop crying.

But its too painful

Couldn’t she stop releasing it through tears?

  What will be the best?

Nothing when everything becomes worthless.

Need it that’s why you love it. Not love it, and then later you need it.

I don't know how to start my expression at the moment. With a decent question, with lots of stress of accounting test, horizontally challenged, pimples and everything, and ____________ some more, how hateful would that be to you? Am I that bad? Owh please. I just need some space for my own self. To think and to do which would be right things for me but aren't for others. Don't make me feel as if I'm worthless because apparently I'm not.If given a chance for me, I'll grab it with all heart. So that would be fair isn't it? I'M NOT THAT BAD!

Handbags..

 Thinking of buying new handbag, online for the first time in my life. 

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Wasting time

Okay I'm not studying. Yeah I'm blogging. It's been a week rase tak study and I spent too much time with him this week. Well I guess so. Hurm I have no idea why I felt sooo "missing him" this week and that! urged me to leave my books and grab him instead..Arghhh... The more fight the better so there's a space to not to be with each other for awhile, well at least. Urhhh..Stop craping. No I said stop. Stop I said. Don't you get me? Heyy...heyyyy heyyy heyyyy... Damn it. Stubborn.

Hurm while wasting time...

Which one nicer? Please tell me...Hurmmmmm

Just the way I am?

Frankly speaking, his character is somewhat sweet but not a sweet talker. Its better to say cool to have this kinda guy as a boyfriend. Yet, what a lame if she's begging for sweet talks. Owh crap. Anyhow,,,,thanks again for.......

Oh her eyes, her eyes

Make the stars look like they're not shining

Her hair, her hair

Falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful

And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know

When I compliment her

She wont believe me

And its so, its so

Sad to think she don't see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay

I say

When I see your face

There's not a thing that I would change

Cause you're amazing

Just the way you are

And when you smile,

The whole world stops and stares for awhile

Cause girl you're amazing

Just the way you are

Her nails, her nails

I could kiss them all day if she'd let me

Her laugh, her laugh

She hates but I think its so sexy

She's so beautiful

And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know

Id never ask you to change

If perfect is what you're searching for

Then just stay the same

So don't even bother asking

If you look okay

You know I say

When I see your face

There's not a thing that I would change

Cause you're amazing

Just the way you are

And when you smile,

The whole world stops and stares for awhile

Cause girl you're amazing

Just the way you are

From my Love

Besides my family and friends, you will always be the one to support me. That's why I chose you. And still. Thanks Syafeeq Asyraf for dedicating this song to me. I know its like singing my own song for my own self, but its working in opening my eyes and my mind.

Today My Life Begins 

i've been working hard so long

seems like pain has been my only friend

my fragile heart's been done so wrong

i wondered if i'd ever heal again

ohh just like all the seasons never stay the same

all around me i can feel a change (ohh)

i will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me

leave the past behind me, today my life begins

a whole new world is waiting it's mine for the taking

i know i can make it, today my life begins

yesterday has come and gone

and i've learn how to leave it where it is

and i see that i was wrong

for ever doubting i could win

ohh just like all the seasons never stay the same

all around me i can feel a change (ohh)

i will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me

leave the past behind me, today my life begins

a whole new world is waiting it's mine for the taking

i know i can make it, today my life begins

life's to short to have regrets

so i'm learning now to leave it in the past and try to forget

only have one life to live

so you better make the best of it

I Love You

ADP Day

12/11/12 was recognized as "ADP day" which was organized by student council. A day where the whole ADP students, lecturers, staffs, and the Dean need to wear ADP T-shirt, either black or white. Yeah this was the one that me and Lee Ying mastermind for the ADP T-shirt designing contest and the winner was Jonathan.

The sales was really good after so many obstacles that we faced, and with all back up plans and marketing strategy that came out to overcome the problems.

Its totally worthless for now. I just wanna feel appreciated with respect and concern.
I neglected my studies these few days. So.....please....

Perfect week please

I just want a "seven perfect days" in a row. Why is that so hard?

I feel like screaming out loud!

Stupid Heels

Daripada reluctant nak keluar, it ended up badly jusssst because of my stupid high heels..I hate this situation..I hate it soooooooooooo much!!!!!!!!

Anyhow, its hurting my feet. And stilllll...So please do understand okay.

Doa Ketika Dukacita dan Sedih

Murah rezeki, Tenang fikiran, Tenteram Jiwa

Insya Allah. Amin..

Soothing ways

It might be the another tough moment that I need to face in my life. Like Ibu said, its only a minor trouble . I'm glad because I still turn to Him, to the only Holy Quran, picked my sejadah, Hajat prayers, zikir, and the most, Yassin. I claim them as one of my achievements. The success of choosing soothing ways. I'm just so glad as I don't choose those "catchy" ways in comforting myself. Taking drugs, smoke, clubin, and etc. Insya Allah dijauhkan.

There was one time I went to see my tuition teacher, Mr Rai. Asked for personal advice and he said....
"Why are you so afraid with your result now? What important is your result later. And by the time, you will not remember these minor failures that you're facing now."

Tell me how...

How to overcome depression? Just chill. And tell me how to chill?. I mean like really chill. Perfectly!
By playing Bejeweled Blitz and letting Winamp on, is such a temporary way.

Secrets

Onerepublic - Secrets

I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kinda boring
Need something that I can confess
'Til all my sleeves are stained red

From all the truth that I've said
Come by it honestly I swear
Thought you saw wink, no
I've been on the brink, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away

This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

My God, amazing how we got this far
It's like we're chasing all those stars
Who's driving shiny big black cars
And everyday I see the news
All the problems that we could solve

And when a situation rises
Just write it into an album
Singing straight, too cold
I don't really like my flow, no, so

Oh, got no reason, got not shame
Got no family I can blame
Just don't let me disappear
I'ma tell you everything

This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away
All my secrets away, all my secrets away

Didn't you notice that my blog sounds a bit of passionate expression of grief and sorrow lately? And I have no idea how does this song relate to my feelings right now. Blogging or writing about sad things, doesn't mean I never been through a life full of laughter. My life isn't that boring as described in this song. But entah la.  I just wanna get to know to some creatures, who knows zero thing about me. So perhaps I could show the other side of me. Getting to know people a bit here and there isn't that risky rather than having close girlfriends, or BFF like what they "verbalize" nowadays. You can share things about you this and that, about anything which depends what kinda interest that they prefer to chat about. Damn it! I'm not growing up for writing these all. Arghhhhh..I wish my lappy could be responsive and sensitive.

Be Strong!

Telling people that you gonna do something excellently, which you know where you're standing, where you know the low possibility of getting it, which only miracle could fulfill your sweet dreams, its like completely lying to yourself. Every after you open your eyes in the morning, look and think of positive things that gonna happen, until the eyes are closed in the late of night. But me, vice versa. DUMMY! People rarely look the good things that ever happened in their life when they are on the downturn of wheel. If they do, they would just lie to themselves instead. Yet, out all of the wishes that I've  made, out all of the goals that I've targeted, out all of the prayers that I've asked from Him, they bring myself to be here.

 I remember how scared I was until I fell sick the day before UPSR, where people convinced me thaaaaaat was just because of my panickiness. I remember the rival between me and my batch mates of getting to the top in high school, form 1 to form 3, and I was always the one. Until I faced the stage where I was out of the top 5, I fell sick for two weeks long. But after all hard works I put on, they were well worth the effort. But I remember how awful I felt on the day of ceremony, without Izzaura who used to be my close friend, and my competitor receiving the awards together. And then I was offered to this boarding school, I was glad but not grateful because I aimed for other schools. I've been through a lot here. I remember there was one day after my teacher returned our Physics test and I got lower than I expected. And then my Modern Math (obviously this subject gave a big impact on me), I hid myself at the hostel, crying all alone, took my Quran and recited Yassin over and over again. I remember  the  distressing state that I faced when I was out of top 20 in form 5. I also remember when I got to know this one guy, pushed myself to love him back indeed. Until it ended gravely. So much pain I carried.

After writing these all, these remind me of how much failures that I need to face, before getting straight A's in PMR, straight A's in SPM and been offered to this incredible university, which guiding me to a better university. I failed so many times, but I wake up smoothly, with grave and sorrow, with tears and trauma. Yet, I deserved for what I've put on. Whatever I achieved, wouldn't be as perfect as I shoot for. But still, I obtained the bestest that I deserve. And I'm still getting them. And I will.

I wish but I know

I feel empty.

I wish I can get rid of this.

I wish I can be someone else.

I wish I surrounded with other people.

I wish I have the good abilities that some people have.

I wish I'm blind, thus I can't see the negative sides of me.

Yea I'm totally blind, so thats why I'm afraid of changing myself.

I wish I can change myself. 

I wish I can deal things maturely, coolly, calmly, and with "brain".

I wish I can be myself, but only the adorable side of me.

I wish I couldn't let people to see my weaknesses. But my capabilities, success, and strategy of handling problems indeed.

I wish I wouldn't be able to complain about everything, but just look forward and follow the flow.

I wish I'm not muttering about myself in my blog, right now.

I feel bad.

I don't know how pretty my life is.

But I think its pretty beautiful to me.

I don't know why am I so weak of facing failures, and troubles.

But I know how much effort I put on it.

I don't know how much tears have I released.

But I know how painful the caused would be.

I don't how much someone could adore me.
But I know who deserved the best.
Whether me, or them

I don't know what's the best thing that, my family, him, my friends and people around me could see in me.
But I know the only thing that best about me, is only me. Me myself and I.

That would be the secret between me, and Him.

I don't know where would I stand in the future.

That's the only thing that I don't know.

Its only Him who knows.

What I need to do, go forward, don't look back!

Don't neglect the only Him, the one who assigned me to be here, to continue my way until the the end of my life. Hereafter.

The impact of carelessness

I'm revealing about being an awful girlfriend. Its like behind the scene movie making.
I have noooo idea what is wrong with my head, well specifically, my brain.
Its quite  functioning in term of stressing up itself but for being a dreadful one, jussst at the wrong time and at the wrong place. Its not just once, simply after so many times already.

I feel bad. And that is horrifying for having  this kinda disease. I wish there is a medicine to cure my problem but the thing is, It can only be cured with the vaccine in me. Which I found it so hard for me to look for it. There's a feeling that I think I know, no matter how precious the property is to me,there's nothing else that can be replaced, other than,,,,,,,,,him. It happened the moment I lost my everything, remember the purse, watch and cellphone tingy?

You know what I did? I dislike his ALDO watch because of certain circumstances (not gonna reveal here). I forgot to bring my watch this morning and I really need a watch while doing my test, which was Chemistry. I borrowed his and dumped it in my pencil case. I put my eraser, pencil lid and calculator on the desk before the exam, and then his watch. That was an hour exam, and with my usual clumsiness during exams, the watch accidentally fell down. With my usual dumbness, I left it there and continue doing my test. I totally forgot to take back the watch .

TOEFL result was haunting me all the way, the lost of the watch was scaring me indeed. So i decided to just text Wawe and ask her to look for the watch since she was still at the main campus and I was in the accounting class.

He was mad at me for not telling him in the first place. Okay let me explain. I was about to tell you once Wawe said she found it. But unluckily, it happened so fast. I was crying like hell in the car, begging for your forgiveness by taking me out. Finally we did it. I really hope its worth it. I am really truly sorry. I really am. I know you love that watch so much. Even I myself feel awkward seeing you without wearing the watch.

Moving out

We are moving to Taylor's Lakeside Campus next winter, which is in January.
Yeah true that was so exciting until we face these problems.
Looking for new place to rent, well actually, found one already and we just deposited some cash to the #$%^@#$%^ middle woman. Hurm so not gonna talk about this.

 For current infos

•  We need to pay for November and December rental but obviously we're moving January. So what's up with that?
•  No TV and internet which are so important for students. Got air cond, like I'm gonna use it.-Partially furnished
•  Last time she said utilities expenses are included in monthly payment but suddenly she said excluding.
• Quite a  nice place
• Walking distance to campus. Thinking of buying a bicycle. (cool gile)
• Haven't found any OldTown or AyamPenyet.
• Nearby Sunway Pyramid

Owh yea. Sunway Court is the place. The payment, foods, billings, and everything seem like bugging our head these few days.

How to start your day?

Start your day with good things. It won't be that hard. It might turn to be a better day than yesterday. And let that be in every single day of your life. So that means, you gonna get a better, better and better life in the long run.

Start your day with a morning smile!

Expression

Yeah I know it's been awhile.

 Well I don't know who exactly is following my blog.

 I mean yeah, like really follow my blog.

I haven't blogged that means I haven't expressed myself for quite sometimes.

 The less I express, the less problem would come out.
If I could realize this matter earlier.

 The same thing keep going on and on and on and on.

A good conversation does matter!

 Easier said than done.

 Its not easy to work it out.

So just let it be.

That's the best on my mind now.