Happy New Year

Kenapa berdoa hanya pada saat kesusahan sedangkan Allah sentiasa mendengar setiap detik kita bernafas?

Tak kira bertapa besar nya dosa kita, tak kira walaupon soon you all mungkin akan mengulang kesilapan dan dosa tersebut, just don't stop praying. Sebab setiap kali kita berdoa, setiap kali tu lah kita akan berada dekat disisi Allah, walau sehina hina nya manusia tu. Kalau susah kita nak berubah tu, cuma sebab Hidayah susah nak dekat dengan kita. Hanya orang tertentu yang terpilih untuk menerima hidayah, but that doesn't mean that we should give up.

Ibu yang kata, keep on praying, berdoa pada Allah untuk beri yang terbaik pada kita. Tak kira la apa dosa yang kita dah buat, even kita pun x pasti sama ada kita akan buat lagi atau tidak, just keep on berdoa. Because He always listens. Sebab tu lah dalam Al Quran ada kata, orang yang tak berdoa ni adalah antara orang orang yang tersangat lah rugi.

 Awal Tahun & Akhir Tahun Hijriah

January 19, 2007 by syedas

Doa Akhir Tahun dibaca 3 kali pada akhir waktu Asar atau sebelum masuk waktu Maghrib  pada akhir bulan Zulhijjah.

Sesiapa yang membaca doa ini, Syaitan berkata

“Kesusahan bagiku dan sia-sia lah pekerjaanku menggoda anak Adam pada setahun ini dan Allah binasakan

aku satu saat jua. Dengan sebab membaca doa ini, Allah ampunkan dosanya setahun”

Berikut adalah Doa Akhir Tahun Maksudnya: Allah SWT berselawat ke atas penghulu kami Muhammad SAW, ahli keluarga dan sahabat-sahabat baginda dan kesejahteraan ke atas mereka. Wahai Tuhan, apa yang telah aku lakukan dalam tahun ini daripada perkara-perkara yang Engkau tegah daripada aku melakukannya dan aku belum bertaubat daripadanya. Sedangkan Engkau tidak redha dan tidak melupakannya. Dan aku telah melakukannya di dalam keadaan di mana Engkau berupaya untuk menghukumku, tetapi Engkau mengilhamkanku dengan taubat selepas keberanianku melakukan dosa-dosa itu semuanya. Sesungguhnya aku memohon keampunanMu, maka ampunilah aku. Dan tidaklah aku melakukan yang demikian daripada apa yang Engkau redhainya dan Engkau menjanjikanku dengan pahala atas yang sedemikian itu. Maka aku memohon kepadaMu. Wahai Tuhan! Wahai yang Maha Pemurah! Wahai Yang Maha Agung dan wahai Yang Maha Mulia agar Engkau menerima taubat itu dariku dan janganlah Engkau menghampakan harapanku kepadaMu Wahai Yang Maha Pemurah. Dan Allah berselawat ke atas penghulu kami Muhammad, ke atas ahli keluarga dan sahabat-sahabatnya dan mengurniakan kesejahteraan ke atas mereka. Barangsiapa yang membaca doa akhir tahun ini, maka syaitan akan berkata: “Hampalah kami di sepanjang tahun ini”. - Doa Awal Tahun dibaca 3 kali selepas maghrib pada malam satu Muharram. Sesiapa yang membaca doa ini, Syaitan berkata “Telah amanlah anak Adam ini daripada godaan pada tahun ini kerana Allah telah mewakilkan dua Malaikat memeliharanya daripada fitnah Syaitan”. Berikut adalah Doa Awal Tahun Maksudnya: Allah SWT berselawat ke atas penghulu kami Muhammad SAW, ahli keluarga dan sahabat-sahabat baginda dan kesejahteraan ke atas mereka. Wahai Tuhan, Engkaulah yang kekal abadi, yang qadim. yang awal dan ke atas kelebihanMu yang besar dan kemurahanMu yang melimpah dan ini adalah tahun baru yang telah muncul di hadapan kami. Kami memohon pemeliharaan dariMu di sepanjang tahun ini dari syaitan dan pembantu-pembantunya dan tentera-tenteranya dan juga pertolongan terhadap diri yang diperintahkan melakukan kejahatan dan usaha yang mendekatkanku kepadaMu Wahai Tuhan Yang Maha Agung dan Maha Mulia. Wahai Tuhan Yang Maha pengasih dari mereka yang mengasihi dan Allah berselawat ke atas penghulu kami Muhammad. Nabi yang ummi dan ke atas ahli keluarga dan sahabat-sahabatnya dan kesejahteraan ke atas mereka.

STYLO

Owh well, I'm almost done with my enrollment to Drake U. Everything settled except my Visa. Not that I'm waiting for my Visa, but I haven't done my interview yet. Say I'm crazy! yeah2! I freak out for real. It's totally my fault for delaying and delaying my Visa! Now I'm effing busy with tests and project. Planing to make it next week, but I have two tests, History on Tuesday and Statistic on Wednesday. So finally I set up my appointment on next Friday. I know right. Too late already. But really that's just me. I really can't handle distraction during my exam fever, yes even though this is important, but still, it's just me! LAME!

Just Mr Leong announced that we're gonna have test on next Tuesday. And stupidly I ask if he can postpone it to next Thursday since I have a test on the next day. And then he said, "Welcome to ADP". Durhh..!! This is like my final semester and I'm used to these kinda excuses from the lecturers. And yeah right, as the super senior, what a silly question to ask Idora?!

It was Haiqal's 3rd birthday. The most exciting part about our birthday is to blow the candle and so you can see his excitement. Hana made two cakes, Chocolate and ice cream cake. Home made okay even though one looks from Secret Recipe and another from BR.

The ice cream cake

Rase macam nak makan je budak haiqal ni

Izaaz's his cousin

See...tak rasa cam nak makan je ke budak ni?

And I bought him a smurfs bag. Something like this la but I think cuter. Hehe.

And the smurf's hat is red in color instead of white.

Sometimes I wonder if some do not welcome my presence. Sometime I feel that I'm not welcomed.
And sometimes, I also don't feel welcome with some presence.                      

Does some people actually know that you're not comfortable with their presence at some point, or some time?
And does some people actually feel that they're not welcomed among the others?

So, which University?

Well let me start with the hesitation of going to these two universities since it's no longer a nightmare to me anymore as I've already made my mind.

They are Temple University and Drake University.

Temple University is in the center of "Brotherly Love" city, what else if not Philadelphia, Pennsylvania. The pros of going to Temple U of course because it's located in the middle of a happening city, like 1 hour away to New York! What do you expect? After all the surveys and analysis, I found out that there are a lot more cons of going to Temple U.

 First, I don't think Temple U is listed among the best school for actuarial science compared to Drake U. As when I asked alumni of US, they wouldn't know where Temple U is. Second, not to say I can't be independent yet, I believe having seniors (as in acquaintances) in a particular University is really helpful. Since some of my JPA friends have started their school one semester earlier there, it's kinda bonus for me too. Third, Temple U is kinda small campus like Taylor's College the one in Subang Jaya SS15.

Not too bad about Drake U, speaking of the size of the campus, Drake is more spacious. Like a normal big campus town. And speaking of having school in the middle of metropolitan area, Drake U is just not that bad. Of course, to compare with other Unis or Temple U to be specific, Drake U is in Des Moines, Iowa which is the capital city of Iowa. I know I know. My friends said Des Moines is really peaceful and not as lively as the other Unis that are located in town. It's okay then. I'm sick of having classes in an urban area ( Just as a comfy..Teehee..) Plus Kak Nat said that it's better to choose Drake because the purpose of going is not to play around, but to study and graduate. She also said, no point to live in an urban area but you burn your scholarship on your living expenses. It's better to save, and do a lot of travelling.

Next, is about the transfer credit. Temple U accepted less credit hours compared to Drake U. But after I checked with my JPA seniors there, they said it's not that all credit hours that are transferable considered transferable. Urmmm how do I put this. It's like some of the courses which counted transferable in the transcript, still I have to retake the course in Drake because the one I learnt in Taylor's was only the basic while the one in Drake is more to prepare you to sit for Professional Papers (as if I'm planing to take).

Owh another bonus about going to Drake is that, Again! It's a private University. And I also got the University's scholarship USD9000.

How can I forget the most obvious thing. People kept asking me this.
"So same Uni with him?"
"What? Why not going to the same Uni?"
So let me explain real clear over here. Because he intended to go to a better school which is University of Wisconsin-Madison. Speaking of him pulak, I show you the pros and cons in term of long distance between these two Unis.

A -  University of Wisconsin Madison
B - Temple University, Philadelphia
C - Drake University, Des Moines, Iowa

Wisconsin to Temple = 18 hours driving
Wisconsin to Drake = 5 hours driving.

So you know the answer. Teehee.

Specially in this post, I wanna thank all of my friends who helped.
George, Mei Ting, Han Fang for application and everything
Raiihan and some of the seniors for giving infos about Temple U. Even though it's not my final decision, still I appreciate all the help from you guys. Really really thank you.
Angel about gadgets in US (ceyh da survey dulu)
Reezal for Drake infos.
And the very last, a special thank you to Farah Nadiah! Oh my God. You've been really really helpful Farah. Thank you so so much. Thank you about the info of Drake U and very much on the housing.
And yeah, very personally to thank Athira. This one, let it be a secret between us.

After all the worries, now I'm excited.

Omegodd!! Is that our freaking mascot?

Car accident. Again!

Alhamdulillah I'm done with my history research paper and thanks to my loved one for pushing myself to start the assignment early. He said "I ambik masa sebulan tau nak siapkan." Then I was like, "Really?" Scared the hell out of me. Then I started reading the book and then with the paper. Tiba tiba perasan that it doesn't take that long for me to complete the whole paper. Wonder kejap why did he take a month to finish his assignment ( he took History 105 last semester). Then he said "Saje je push you habeskan cepat"

"Daymm..!!"

Whatever it is, Thank you By!!!

If so happen tomorrow is going to have Statistic pop quiz, it's very good for me to prepare tonight. Thing is, I don't have the mood. I've been calling him all night but he didn't answer and I don't know why. Busy with BOLA I suppose. Sigh.

Couldn't talk to each other this evening because I was out settling some of my Visa stuff. Wanted to talk to him tonight but he seems busy with don't know what. Really want to have a talk because I got into a car accident when I was driving around Damansara looking for photo shop. While driving, looked left looked right, then tiba2 dashed one car in front of me. That's one thing when you hit a rich man's car. Mercedes Benz yang bagak.

Now I'm really scared and I haven't told my dad because Volvo seemed fine. Tak da scratch or anything. And then this guy was like so mad, and asked for my number and I gave him. I was shaking like hell. Padahal hit his car macam perlahan je kot and scratch2 a bit.

Know what I did next? I off my cellphone until now!

You know there's this one time, while driving back from Curve and then stop la at this one junction sebab traffic light merah. Suddenly this one old guy driving Proton Wira hit Volvo from behind. Memang  his car freaking awesome teruk die while Volvo, dengan jaguh nya bertahan hanya sedikit luka2. Didn't tell my dad also. And by the way, its totally not my fault at all pun. But that old Indian guy looked really shaking kot, and I didn't charge him and he said he's sorry.

So I think, I better off my phone for a week. Scary Mary!

Pin Junction e@curve

Again, if only I have a lot of readers, just wanna promote my cousins business at pin junction. U know pin junction bowling above cinema tu...Not just bowling, now they have more and more entertaining activities to do.
Like kareoke as well!

Take a look at this video,

Nadhira and Ron E. Jones performing at 

Caprice Pin Junction bowling competition

They all memang banyak kali buat bowling competition. Why not give it a try?

Well now they have this...

Money University

Feel so great for being a sponsored student and never I appreciated all the financial aid that MARA has already spent for me by complaining MARA this and MARA that. Only I realized when I see the suffering of my parents to pay for all of these

$ currency currently is around 3.1/3.2

Online Application fees                                  $95

TOEFL transcripts                                        $51

Enrollment Fees                                            $250

SEVIS Fee - paid for Visa application          $200

Visa -                                                          $140

                                                               RM 2,355

FeDex to post all documents                
    to Universities applied                            RM150
Passport -5years,
    50% discount for scholar                        RM150

Medical Check up (estimated)                 RM200 or more

                                                               RM500 or more

                                                                                      

Total                                                      RM 2,855or more

Of course everything is claimable but how soon can I guarantee them that I can return all the money for good. Really feel guilty about this situation. I always aim not to trouble my parents' financial on my education, but I promise that this is only a temporary huge expenditure. Why is it so expensive to get good education? Education now is not just a medium for you to absorb knowledge and apply, but it's about buying and selling too.

That's why I always remind my sisters and brother to seek for scholarship when you deserve. There's always someone who's willing to sponsor you as long as you look for them. So kids, don't be lazy!

Was planing to borrow 3k from them then I can directly buy a new laptop as I reach US since MARA provided RM3000 for laptop or $1000 if I buy in US. Seems like I have to wait then. Just pray MARA do their work efficiently so we'll get our money back on time. Well above all, I'm still glad with my condition because I believe some of my friends suffered even worse to pay all of these.

Anyways friends, we shouldn't feel that bad about all these payments because I remember when George said that all these expenditures are nothing to compare with what MARA (JPA in his case) has sponsored us. You're considered lucky enough!

Now is the movie

That's the movie based on the novel for my assignment and guess what? I really regretted watching this movie as the plot of the film can say completely different than in the novel. Initially, I thought the film would help as I found it so difficult to understand the novel, ironically the film increased my confusion even more. The characters of course still the same as it base on a true historical story which happened during the French and Indian War against the British. But I'm pretty upset as they twisted the uniqueness of the novel, as in the interracial love story between the two main characters. Where Cora Munro the heroin fallen for Hawk-eye, the main character. True Hawk-eye was the main character in the whole film and novel, but supposedly Cora fallen for Uncas, Hawk-eye's brother! The film ended by the death of Uncas and Alice Munro, Cora's half-sister. Supposedly based on the novel, it ended by the funeral of Uncas and Cora. Actually there are a lot of untrue facts in the film. Hurm, now I know how all these directors and script writer twist the true story here and there just to boom their films.

The Last of the Mohicans

Ever heard of the Last of the Mohicans?

What's so great about Mohicans?

Not until you see the cover page of the book.

Yeah right?

Know how boring it is to read something really oldies?

The reading part is "awesome" and the understanding part is tremendously awesome!

tis - this

 'twas - it was

 'tis - it is

 'twill - it will

 atween - between

The hell I know all these words in the first place right. I really wanna thank Wordweb for accompanying me while reading Last of the Mohicans. All these words cuma basic words from the whole book je. Yang lain2 tu lagi la macam tuttttt...Seriously, it's damn COOL. Owh for god sake! Of course I didn't choose to read this kinda book. Plus I'm not a novels/storybooks freak. It's an assignment for my History 105 course which has been assigned like a month ago. And me, just started. Which is good Idora! Hahha.

Anyways, I found History 105 is an awesome course where it tells you about US History before 1877, how and why did Europe conquer America in the first place. Did you know it started when Spain wanted to sail to get to Asia but they landed at America instead. Which they thought it was Asia until a guy named Amerigo Vespucci confirmed with the European people that it wasn't Asia but a new land. Then they named it America based on Amerigo's. And did you know that Pocahontas story really existed?

And from History 105 I finally found out a guy named Noah Webster changed a lot of American spelling which came from England, just because American was dying to be so different than the Brit. Did you know most of Americans ancestors actually came from England?

Tapi tu la dia kan. Education changed a lot of myths and facts.

Don't say America la, say our own country.

Did you actually know that there are a lot of untrue facts in our academic History textbook when we were in high school? I know I'm not the person who does a lot of reading, but at least I'm not that naive.

About this America history thing, yeah. To compare with history of Islam, memang eventually you sedar la punya banyak nye selok belok kelicikan "mereka".

Owh about my assignment, haha. Ask me how do we need to present the assignment? Our very own work, really? Of course there are a lot of plagiarism. But don't worry, it's considered legal as long as I know how to cite them. Seriously speaking, the assignment is so gonna kick my butt. Who said it's just a short synopsis of the book? Then it's easy. It's second year degree cha'll, what do you expect? Mr Leong wants the historical accuracy and the relevance as well. Due on November 25th, can I complete the assignment before time? 

I really love u

im willing to take the risk

and i know u will too

 i love u so much

                                                                                     ~SA~     

                                                                                     

The excitment

I don't know why I don't feel as excited as I was when I got the news, the chance of going to US. Really, sometimes I'm just freaking out, not excited at all I say. The purpose of going seems lost when there's another mess playing on my mind. If only I could say every single detail that I'm feeling now. Please O Allah, I'm seeking for the excitement that my other friends have, and especially, the excitement that he has.

Feel like traveling?

If only I have true and a lot of followers...

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Tour packages in Thailand to be exact. Just click the link below for more information:

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So, go and grab the chance!

Hati rasa tak tenang. I hope He heard my voice shouting for his help. I'm scared and don't tell me to cool down because I just can't at the moment. I'm seeking for my old self, I really AM. I hope that I'll find back at the end of the day because I believe everything will be fine or even better then. I started because I never thought it would be this heartache. It's like taking drugs and now I can't stop. I need to enter rehab to cure myself from this disease. And for that, I need TIME as my dear personal doctor to recover.

YET,

I've always loved myself for who I am. Atleast I didn't fake my laughter, and I cry when I feel like to. Unlike the self between the transition of being the NEW self, I used to laugh when I tears. Hid the pain and ended up it spread all over like cancer.

I believe it does happen to everyone sometimes. So when you feel like you really want to be who you used to be, it's better to think twice. Think back if your so called perfect life during your OLD self time is way better than this present day of yours. Think back if you had all the goodies that you have now. Look all the goodies you got!

I'll learn to love and appreciate myself more. You should too. So why wait?

That's really a pain in the ass. But it wasn't like that back then.

Now I understand when Mr. Leong my History lecturer talked about the "hardship" that he had to bare just to complete his assignment. And more painful when there was a lot of typo.

But we all kept bugging about those assignments while, on the other hand we can actually
"coffee and pasta".

Just think about it.