I'm back!!

There's something whispering deep in my heart, calling me back to write again. I have no clue why I always feel like wanting to write, but have to face a situation where my right ear saying "Don't do it" and the left saying "Do it".

Sometimes I realize there are a lot of drawbacks writing craps in my own blog. I know it should have been more interesting and exciting than it used to be, I mean, yeah I'm now enjoying Summer right here in the States. What do I expect? Time flies so fast! I've been through the most exciting weather I've ever dreamt of since I was a kid, which was the Winter. The beauty here is Subhanallah.

Many reasons I have stopped, I mean "took a break" from blogging. I mean like, SO MANY until I couldn't even explain myself.

I did ask Asyraf (let's go by his name starting from now so it sounds more him) whether should or not I continue writing. And he said "YES, you should". And when I asked him why, he said, "So I boleh dapat updates dari you". Which I don't understand why because we both Alhamdulillah could cope with the long distance relationship for 5 months so far, which now I'm all by his side the whole Summer Break. Feels good!!!!! The key of a long distance relationship is "AT LEAST ONE TEXT MESSAGE/CALL" no matter how busy you are.

Asyraf said that he's missing home so much but he's glad that I'm right here in Madison by his side. Glad to lend  my ears to listen to all the things he's been through, owh yeah, he's now the President of Malaysian Student Association in UW-Madison. Not gonna talk much about it because I myself am so tired as the listener. But I'm all ears!!!

Well me? I skype my dad quite often, a lot of chit chatting with Abang, whatsapping with the sisters, whatsapped Ibu for cooking tips. Not really in that that homesick mode, as much as Asyraf in right now. I assume because I'm kinda used to these kind of long distance relationship with the family. Well again, since I was a kid my parents used to live jauh from all of us. So being far from the family is not really a big deal to us. Walaupon macam tu, Alhamdulillah 7 of us are really really close to each other. Like besties.

I did a lot of traveling Alhamdulillah even those states tak ada lah jauh mana. But it was really fun. US is such a very fascinating place for vacations. When I asked my friends and cousins to come over, VISA always becomes the tricky excuse. No kidding. A massive obstacle entering United States I may say. Two years in US ni la Insya Allah kena travel the whole US. Who knows this would be my first and last chance to be in this huge gigantic country.

This post neither explaining why I've stopped blogging nor my current sentimental updates. Maybe it's just a new fresh start, or maybe just another simple slot of my voice in my own blog. I kind of miss my own writing, confessions and thoughts. I don't know. Sometimes I think by stop blogging could be the reason why I talked unpleasantly recently. To avoid unpleasant thoughts in my blog was one of the main missions for not writing initially. How ironic.

From Des Moines

Leaving Malaysia is a pain in the ass! I know I looked like so calm few hours before my departure but as expected I couldn't hold back my tears. I cried like hell before I passed my passport and boarding pass to the man in charged.

Yeah right...same handbag.

Aye was like ""Heyyyy!!!! Handbag sapa tuuu???"

Haha...Girls~~~

Alhamdulillah...After 20++ hours journey, finally sampai jugak Des Moines, Iowa. As mentioned, we transited in Taipei, Taiwan for like 1 hour plus, than Los Angeles about 5 - 6 hours, in Chicago also like 5 - 6 hours then we finally arrived Des Moines at 1.10pm January 3rd. Me and By, We'r so lucky as we found some vacancies to sit together throughout the journey from KLIA to Taiwan then to Los Angeles. We chat, we sleep, we dinner, we lunch and we breakfast together for the last time. Sob Sob.

When we were in Taipei, Taiwan....



Now, we were in Los Angeles..The moment me and him separated to go on our lives in our own way....
Me to Des Moines, Iowa and him to Wisconsin-Madison.

The smile doesn't tell the whole story.

Before we landed in Los Angels in the plane.

Here are some stuffs from Des Moines, Iowa.

How sad can I look to leave him.

I have to do a lot of stuffs on my own without him from now on. Can't believe the second purpose of going to campus is not him.

Well here's the story about my place. As said, it's true it isn't as lively as New York City, but the seniors kept saying that we've made a good choice. The weather? Alhamdulillah haven't snow yet eventhough I was deadly expecting for snow. Yet, it's freaking cold ovarrr here!!!! Can't withstand the cold weather. Luckily the heater works so well.

Alhamdulillah again Allah ease my burden at people's place. Just moved in to our new house which is not really near to the campus, but it's okay as long as we have place to live in. Will work on the internet thingy soon thus I don't have to crash in senior's place just to online. Owh yea, the seniors over here like so friendly and really helpful. They're totally different than whichever seniors come from in Malaysia. Say what? Highschool? College? Office? They're all like really bossy and stuffs. But seniors here are like bestfriends. No such thing like "please respect him/her since he/she's an ABANG/KAKAK". Many thanks to Asri and Wafi for the ride from one place to another to settle our stuffs.

Done with shopping! Maybe this is common to write it out but still.... Shopping here like super crazy CHEAP! It's like stealing you see. Like in Malaysia the moment when you're so grumpy while approaching the cashier and thought that the total of everything might reach RM1000, but here... don't have to worry at all. The most could be what? $200 or $300 like freaking seriously! I've set up US Bank account which cost more than 20 bucks to transfer money from Malaysia to here. So memang MARA tak touch about the 20 bucks thingy. US bank just gonna deduct that from our monthly allowance, and MARA is not gonna do anything about it. Sigh. Well, I'm gonna start buying stuffs by using debit card instead of cash, or buy things online most probably. Seniors said people shop at Amazon and Ebay to the max over here.

Well my orientation starts on January 12th. Got a lot of things to do in the meantime. Starting to miss the family and my loved one. Hope can see my baby as soon as possible.

Family with Marché

Off to the States, family gathering is a must! The plan supposed to be Ayah, Ibu, Ina, Abang and Aizat going to Kuala Pilah tonight, and then another convoy which includes me, Kaklong, Isha, Ata and Razan tomorrow. But suddenly we change our plan. Instead of going back separately, why not if 7 of us eat out tonight right. So we arranged a plan at the very last minute. The Curve is the nearest mall, so we went to Marché. Yeap that was the first time we've been there so I apologize for the jacoon photos down here.

Hurm, a creepy eater like me of course will say that the meals are totally awesome. Well not just me I guess. Teehee. Despite of those scrumptious meals, I like the restaurant because of the process of getting the foods. No matter how many persons in your group, they'll give every each one of you a card that will be needed throughout the whole process. Hehe. Scroll down to see the how the card looks like. Why Marché? It means market. Yes, it does really look like a supermarket whereby you go to one shop to another to order the meals that you want. They departmentalize them by each category as in Pasta, Pizza, Grill, Bakery, Seafood, Beer, Juice, etc. Banyak gila pilihan dalam setiap bahagian. So 7 of us divide2 la nak ambik apa. And mine, I chose Mixed grill...Weeeeeeee......

So it's like that la... They kira all the chops that we order.

Just don't know how to describe the place because it's incredibly awesome! Let the pictures do the talking...

I know right... the place like so spacious padahal from outside looks soooo small.

Hehe... Kami comel!

So, what's the damage? Surprisingly it's not that pricy. Just nice.

Then we went to Pin Junction and asked Ammar if we can play karaoke. It was quite late actually but luckily Ammar kasi chance. Wuhuu...

 Halalkan makan minum dan minta ampun terkasar bahasa.

What's with my lips?

I'm gonna miss all of them. Can't believe I'm gonna leave them soon. Don't wanna write more, afraid if I cry.

Alhamdulillah...  for what? Hehe will update once it's confirmed! Seems so confirmed already, but who know if there's any changes.....

Again...I hate this feeling.. Why is it that hard? Why it has to be this difficult for me? Why the fate keep playing with my life? Why why why? I just wanna have great smiles for these last few days left in Malaysia. The mountain is too high for me to reach, but why can't atleast I accept this small thing? No, it's huge to me. But small to others.

I know it's pointless and I know it's a foolish thing to do. To keep refreshing and refreshing and refreshing while the final has been decided. Why keep on waiting? I know, I'm just being a drama queen, but it's just too good to be true. Won't stop the hope-hunting until the very end.

If only you know..............

Time to shop!

Last week was a shopping week with By. He's the kinda guy who does an extreme survey then baru he'll buy the stuffs he wants. What I mean extreme, he would drag me all the way to KL (Pavilion, KLCC, Fahrenheit, etc.) after Damansara (Curve and OU), not enough with that, then to Subang (Summit, Subang Parada, Sunway) just to survey only! For what? Looking for....

• cheapest price
• suitable size
• the best design of the items
• the best color of that particular item in case the other outlets out of stock
• for his own satisfaction for God sake!

He said " I tak puas hati selagi tak pergi semua malls!" 

I know right, sounds so girly. Yeah, he's very particular and fussy in shopping. And that's the best thing going shopping with him because he says "Yes" and "No" just on the right item (for my case). Warghhh can't believe I'm not gonna go shopping with him that often later on. Owh did I mention we took like 3 days to window-shop and only on the 4th we eventually bought everything? And not really everything, to be continued on this Wednesday.

So here are some things I bought...

• 2 wool stockings
• 1 wool legging
• 2 winter coats from Kaklong's shop
• Some blouses from Kaklong's shop
• 3 Uniqlo pants
• 1 Uniqlo Heattech (acts as Long John)
• 1 Polo cargo luggage
• 1 Charles & Keith handbag 
• 1 Arrow blouse
• 1 G2000 women blazer
• Some undies (better don't tell how many...Teehee)
• Silky Girl Make up remover, hurm don't know la can bring or not this one. =(

Last item need to shop is a shoe. Still don't know a flat shoe or a high-heeled boot. I know, shouldn't buy boot here but I don't wanna wear flat! People ask me to wear sport shoe or casual shoe or plum shoe, but really. Seriously I have zero confident when I wear flat. Sebab when I talk to people, I would be like mendongak gila2 kot.

All the shopping stuffs sound so extravagant I assume, well just take it as I'm not a shopaholic. And remember that I don't totally lean on my parents? Only items on this Wendesday Mom will support since dah zero cash sekarang ni. Ibu said "only buy the necessities", so her money for those "necessities". Teehee.

Updating the flight. Confirmed will be on January 2nd, next day after kenduri kesyukuran Insya Allah on 1st. Can't wait to meet the relatives. At 3.15pm on 2nd and estimated time of arrival is at 1.30pm in Des Moines airport, Iowa on January 3rd. So all the transits go like,

KLIA                -    Taipei, Taiwan

Taipei, Taiwan  -    Los Angeles

Los Angeles      -    Chicago

Chicago             -    Des Moines

Unknown special cake

I went to Sayang's kenduri kesyukuran this afternoon and guess what? With my parents! Wuhuuu...

So I baked, Na'ah, I made a special dessert for him and his family. Teka la ape.. Hehe.. I did not want to reveal the secret recipe in the first place because you know it might look a little bit expert in cooking if I don't tell the ingredients. Lagi2 when all the expert cooks read this crap and they all would be like "Hek eleh minah ni..Senang je la...Poyo gile nak show off!"

Omg, like seriously, I am just so proud of myself for making the dessert and By said it tasted awesome. But  don't know la if it's a boyfriend-awesome or an eater-awesome. Get what I mean? Crap, forget it.

I googled the recipe for sure, but then I touch up sikit the ingredients.

Horlicks

Peanut butter

Butter

Vanilla essence

Jelly strips

Sugar

So.... Tadaa~~~