Rambut gugur yang baru lepas mandi tadi.

Serious or not serious?

I confessed something with whole heart and with unexpected tears. I hope he can listen to my words, but still, deal it with his own first. Because what important is himself, and myself. Three words

My awful new hair

From the previous entry's question. Treatment or no treatment?

These are my hair before I went to the saloon. Lemme show you the glory of the half day of today.

Wow ada style model lipstick tak? Mesti tak kan?

I was half-drown in his afro hair.

So we went to Subang SS 15 for our hairdos. We entered to this saloon which I pernah buat hair cut the other day and really adore it. And by the time the price pon so cheap. But then, since I wanted a treatment for my hair, it was a bit more expensive. Well I mean, really quite expensive. I normally can get a treatment way cheaper than that and it's usually Schwarzkopf brand. But then I asked the stylish to use Loreal instead. (Since he convinced me that "Kalau you guna Loreal memang mahal sikit tapi soft, kalau Schwarzkopf murah sikit tapi you la rugi, saya tak rugi,") And asked him to do a bit of trimming. Yeah there you go. One thing about trimming a girl's hair, do not CUT IT SHORT! When she said "trim", she doesn't mean CUT! She means just trim hujung2 rambut SAHAJA! Yang dah rosak, yang dah bercabang and etc. She doesn't care if it's only half inch or one inch as long as not short. 

Harghhh!!!!!! Bengang sangat2. Tapi malas nak mengomel dengan stylish tu so just said "Ok I like it"

Another tips to go to a saloon, don't go at night because the buggers in the saloon would normally rush to close their shop. Very hard to bargain the price and they wouldn't give a full commitment to your lovely crown. End up, you might cry the whole night. Trust me. Go during afternoon till evening. Especially when you wanna do treatment or relaxing, curling, etc. It takes the whole day man I'm telling you. If it takes like one or two hours (like mine just now), there must be something wrong. 

This one is his hair after the afro ones been chopped off. Looks cuter but I hate it.

I like it this way. hehe Love you sayang.

Owh for guys, it's not a big deal. Plus in his case, I really adore his new hair. The stylish tu memang professional la style kan rambut dia. Because normally the other stylish from other saloon would cut his hair too short and makes him look so nerdy. Maybe my hair ni sebab his helper yang buat kot. =(

While waiting for the outcome. Wanted to take my untie hair before the treatment and trimming. But tak sempat sebab owner tu macam rush we all and sebab dah malam pon. Malas dah nak merayau cari saloon yang tengah promotion ni.

 Wanna see? Wanna see? Wanna see?

Who said he's not a camwhore. Sejak berkenalan dengan anak2 cik Haris, terus dia belajar cara2 nya.

My hair looks lurus sangat and I macam annoyed je with that. And stupidly but determinedly, I shampooed my hair once I reached home. Still feeling like crying right now. Waaaa...Lambatnye nak tunggu rambut panjang balik. =(((

It's my hair =(

Mesti pelikkan apa bendanya ni

Yeap rambut

Banyak kan? Rambut yang ditarik dari sikat after few months.

Gumpalan kecil

Gumpalan sangat kecil

My hair lately ni banyak sangat gugur and I'm really worried about it. Before ni takda pon masalah ni. Dah la rambut tersedia nipis but now, siap gugur pulak lagi. This is so upsetting me. These ones in the pictures semua yang tersangkut dekat sikat. But yang gugur masa tengah shampoo and then mase rinse dengan air? And masa pakai conditioner and rinse lagi dengan air? Tak kira lagi. A lot man.

 I don't know what the factors are. I hope I'm not carrying any serious disease or what. Yeah shampoo should be one. But normally guna shampoo anti dandruff Sunsilk okay je. Last time I used to use Tresemme'  shampoo and my hair banyak gila fall. And then I stopped so I started using anti dandruff Sunsilk because effective sangat in term of dandruff la. And malas nak maintain rambut mahal2. Cume maintain dengan treatement je some of the times. Lately ni, since this semester selalu balik my house in Damansara, malas nak bawak balik shampoo sendiri so I use my sister's during the weekend and it's Tresemme. Your hair will become softer by using this shampoo yes no lie. But sampai situ je jasa shampoo ni for me. Until then, my hair banyak gila fall tau. Tension betul. 

A clear old comb 

Will update the hair falls dekat comb ni after certain period.

Tengok gambar2 ni masa zaman sekola. Tinggal kenangan je. =( Maybe because I started buat treatment ape ngarut ntah my hair is getting worse. Hurm which fact is real? Treatment or no treatment?

I bet you would say I look more matured back then. 

I feel so bad today 

It was all because of yesterday's

When the devil possessed me

it wasn't just me

No, it was me

but the darkest side of my darkself

It's haunting someone

the one that I love

I wish Sorry is the easiest word.

It is. To say, it is.

To accept for the other side,

It's easy still.

I caused the wooziness

from the blow on his head.

Modifying a cake

As I mentioned in this post I'm sorry, I made a Chocolate Batik cake. And I tried it this morning but it was tasteless. Tawar. And because I forgot to buy some sugar. So after lunch, I dropped by at Speedmart and bought coco powder and susu pekat. For what? I made a chocolate topping for my batik cake.

From this,

And after I poured this mixture

It became like this

Actually I'm still quite upset because now, rase die macam terlebih coco. 

Taste like dark chocolate.

Sigh...

Tunggu sampai da sejuk and I'll serve By no matter what. 

Really hope that he's gonna love it.

Close your eyes with an open heart

I plagiarized some from my Sociology journal. It's okay. Not gonna get caught because everything is my very own word.

The charity that had been held on July 10^th 2011 was the last group of Sociology students where we were assigned to teach almost 30 children at an orphanage in Kepong. My group gathered at Taylor’s Lakeside around 12.45 pm and we reached there around 2.00 pm.  As our leader Syafeeq Asyraf briefed the whole group about our activity on that day, he then divided us according to the orphanages’ stage of ages. He also distributed the materials that we’ll be using during the teaching activity. I am so delighted to start the activity as I naturally adore kids. Hence, it wasn’t a big problem for me to handle their childish behavior, their excitement and their naughtiness.

The smartest kid

As I entered the orphanage, a feeling of sympathy conquered my emotions and mind as I saw the condition of the orphanage inside and outside. 30 orphans to stay in such a small house, with limited utensils and furniture. With a very unclean floor, some leftover foods were all over the place. But then, I saw a little girl age around 10 to 11 years old were sweeping the floor. I assumed because she has the feeling of respect toward the guests. After awhile, I saw one of the orphans brought in some used plates and rice pot to the kitchen.

The hardworking one

Peace yeawww

 Put aside the difficulty of the orphans to endure their lives, we precede our teaching by distributing the materials that we have to every each one of them. In my case, I was teaching the pre-school level with my partner Syafeeq Asyraf.  I’ve never experienced teaching young kids ABC nor 123, even though it was a real tough responsibility yet I was so happy seeing the orphans enjoyed my teaching. There are some really weak in their learning and the other are quite intelligent. There are some who are responsive and the others are so excited, even though they know learning addition and subtraction are such a pain in the ass. For that I believe the term of social mobility that is allowed by the class system, the movement of up or down of the class ladder. The potential for improving one’s life or for falling down the class ladder. Moreover, it is a major force that drives people to work hard to achieve success in life. I am grateful that these orphans have such a great effort with the hard work that they put on.

 This boy is a smart one even though he is a bit slow in calculating. But later when By told me that he is 12, which supposed to be in Standard 6, I was a bit shocked and upset because his education level is still in pre-school level. But atleast, I see his effort. He might be slow, but he has the will. As the saying says, "When there's a will, there's a way."

 She's cute, very cute and innocent. Now it's vice versa. She's only 6th years old, but she's smarter than her age should be. Well I assumed. She's the only one who can speak English. One of her friends said that she's a mixed blood girl (Chinese-Indian) It is quite obvious because she has a fairer skin to compare with the others. I don't know whether it's true or not and I don't have the authority to say that mixed blood people are smarter. Yeah they're normally have a better looking as known as appearance. But in term of intelligence, I did ask in my Psychology class last semester, my curiosity about the intelligence of mixed blood people, and then Mr Tarosh hit me with two words "That's Bullshit!"

They're so excited of taking pictures.

After the orphans were done with their tasks, we awarded them with candy. We finished the teaching too early than what had been scheduled. We came out with an idea to gather the kids and play some interesting games. 

 Frankly speaking, it was more difficult to handle them when it came to playing games rather than teaching. This was all because of the excitement that we created. Eventually, we managed to instruct them to play Musical chair by singing ABCDE.. until Z to stop. 

 The time shown 4.30 pm, and I noticed that some of the orphans were ready showered by their caretakers. While the others were still outside playing with each other. We just watched them while conversing about the patience of being a teacher, a caretaker of young children. What’s more when those who are known as an orphan. Living without a mother or a father, and only people just around their age as a replacement. Out of the blue, I heard a bell was ringing and for once, straight away all the orphans entered the house. And then I asked one of my group mates “What is that?” and he said, it’s a sign for them to gather. Every each one of them. I was so amazed with the situation, with their efficiency and obedience. This situation supports Gaetano Mosca’s argument where he mentioned that no society can exist unless it is organized. Leadership is needed in order to coordinate people’s actions. In this case, the owner of the house represents the leader of the house, and he has a few other helpers to manage the unlucky kids. They trained them to be submissive and hardworking.

They're twin brothers but not identical. My friend, Ain who went with the previous group before asked me to pass these two books to both of them. I felt so guilty with the others kids because they wanted these books so much. The cover page itself is so interesting right. But I managed to pass it to both of them before I left the orphanage while their other friends were busy playing at the other side.

Last but not least, I would like to end my journal by making an argument of the concept caste system. As what had been stated, caste system says that status is determined by birth and is lifelong. Someone who is born into a low-status group will always have low status, no matter how much that person may accomplish in life. Does it mean all these unfortunate kids will definitely stay poor as how they are living now, even though they go to school same like other middle-class people do, the efforts that they have, and even the determination as well as the high ambition that they set.  Is it just a hopeless day-dream of some desperate unfortunate kids, or is it a normal expectation and goal that the kids’ right to pursue?